♥深淵

不斷去重新檢查，結果還是沒有改變...

或許那不是屬於我的領域，我不應該硬闖。

可是一只腳已經陷阱去了，還能自拔嗎？

輕易放棄的人是永遠不會成功的，而偏偏我卻是那樣的人。

Bad news...

I wake up in the early morning, prepare...to hang out with Mandy.
Sunway Pyramid shopping....
I was very happy before I get the Bad News...
IS TOO SAD & SPEECHLESS...
Once, my brother call me and told me the Sem2 Final results is OUT.
I felt so scary and uncomfortable...
Finally I felt disappointed when I checked my results.
Is too bad!!!
[Introduction to Internet Technologies]&[Business Organization] I didn't get A is the 1st SAD, then Programming subject I fail so that need to resit the paper.
I have not confident at all to pass this subject anymore. How hard I had tried my best? I can't imagines ...

♥ My life ♥

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♥ I love my bedroom's design...♥

Fulfill with SNSD & Super Junior / SJ's Posters...xD

I hope to get a computer table.

I want my Piano in my bedroom but it's impossible =( My room is too small !

What kind of relax is this ? I am having a Semester break. Sem3 is waiting for me... =D

I love reading♥ but honestly, I just read Chinese's book, especially China History♥

Here is just a small part of my Hello Kitty collection ^^ ♥Appreciate♥

I love them so much♥ muahaha

Wao...Shopping madness is now my "Mission" xD

I hope I can "save" my money ♥

Chinese New Year is coming soon^^

How many I had spent for my New clothes, New bags & Purse, and New shoes...

I am quite excited to this , because...Gambling^^ teehee♥...I love it so much!

♥SAD♥ I can't leave these medicine. >.< It's too suffer to consume these everyday non-stop. =(

I hope the Skin Allergy will recover soon

AND...Thanks Ying Ying for helping me to do the UV light treatment.

My skin look better after doing that treatment♥

♥Good Night & Sweet Dream♥

眼神♥言語 / 執著

聼得見那眼神所帶來的信息嗎？我聼得見。

如果有人迴避你的眼神意味著什麽呢？

其實只是意味著她不想有眼神閒的接觸。

如果一個人沒有心虛的話，他不會迴避你的眼神。

我感覺到誤會是存在的，我到底要怎麽做？

兩個星期就要Final考試了(Sem2)

我不想去想，因爲我不想接受。

或許一個人什麽推動力都沒了，

做什麽也沒意義了吧。

我想放棄嗎？想，可是我不想讓其他人看小我。

現在回想起，幼兒園獲得全校第二名是理所當然的。

小學生涯讀精英班也是必然，應該的。

中學生涯初中我都在蹉跎歲月，不驚覺我的PMR成績徹底讓我失望。

那段時間我的心有多難過多麽痛苦？我不想回想。

中四慢慢的耕耘，重新振作；

中五更不必多說，我有多努力？相信老師們和我身邊的朋友都清楚。（尤其是國文&經濟）

整整一年的時間，抛開所有的電視劇，把大部分的時間都躲在房裏溫書。

或許對某些人來説沒什麽，可對我來説是“犧牲”

一年來的努力，整整十多個大大小小的考試，

我都盡力做到最好了，可是爲什麽偏偏SPM...

或許有些人會說我“傻”何必執著那成績，已經不重要了。

可是對我，我卻不那麽認爲。

錯不在于我，是政府！是教育局。我並不是推卸責任，事實是如此。

我Drop了ACCOUNT這科目而已。

剩下的十課除了SEJARAH,我都使盡了全力。

結果呢？老天了只給了我2個A-, 僅僅的2個科目而已。（Seni & English）

意料外的事MORAL竟然沒有A+，別可我不說，這我有十足的把握！

豈料只得個B+, Moral老師還問我：“Kenapa tak ada A?"

中國文學這額外的科目，在沒有老師的指導下，我得了B+。

華文，國文，數學，經濟學（EkonomiAsas）都是B+.

TT 說我能不討厭 “B+” 嗎？

科學B =)

6科B+ ? 沒有人會看得見B+, 眼裏都只有A，至於...

中學生涯使我獲益不少，但我讓我留下6個B+這個污點。

我不要>.< 原來是過了兩年的時間，

我依然耿耿於懷，無法接受與放下。

皆因...或許我太倔強？

我不想說College, 這壓力比起中學時期簡直遠遠不能相比，

快壓得我喘不過氣來了，很辛苦。

或許...或許...我真的選這錯了。

恨我，恨我爲什麽總是這樣？

若我Sem2的成績有Fail的話，我應該怎麽辦？

原來我什麽都不想要...

考試一步步逼近，College的考試不再像中學般簡單，
重重的困難，挑戰在前方迎接我，
必須去克服，去迎接挑戰。
奈何我遇到的難題，是解決不了的。
她要撰牛角尖，我也沒辦法。
我學會了...學會了用一個淡淡的笑容來掩飾背後的悲傷與淚水。
那或許讓別人覺得你冷淡，可是他們不曉，不曉那笑容其實掩飾著百般的痛苦 。
日子漸漸久了，自己也覺得“虛僞”，
明明是傷心難過，爲什麽還有笑臉迎人？
若我以黑臉示人，必會招來他人的不滿。

女性儅自強，不一定會輸給男性。
爲什麽人類中有一種錯誤的念頭？
我們不是弱者，不需要靠其他人。
不要小看，不要輕視。

連擁有快樂的權利也沒有，我才發現原來是這樣，或許“她”是在提醒我吧！
現階段的我經歷了多少挫折，多少磨練？
那已經不重要了，因爲我發現我什麽都不想要了。

曾經以爲...可是原來那一切都只是笑話！
冷冷的待人，不讓自己受傷害，
可以說那是种保護自己的方法。

我只是一個普通人。

“天將降大任于是人也，必先苦其心志，勞其脛骨，餓其体膚，空乏其身，行佛亂其所為。”

♥I am Fan of Sony Ericsson♥

總算有篇是開心帖子，我又...想換電話了。=(...The problem is...I have finish all my salary TT

aND now...My pocket money from parents was not enough.

I am totally super regrets I didn't save that money.

Where my salary gone?

Original DVD...Camera, Laptop, Handphone, Facial, Bags, Clothes, Hello Kitty's products, (This is the most....>.<)

OMG! I am now regrets...TT

“EX”手機都陪伴我不超過一年，原因Maybe is they felt afraid, “怕”我“虐待”它們。

Since...I always throw them to the floor when I get angry.

Hot tempered, I hate myself for this stupid action.

1st HP:

(well...I miss W300i)

2nd HP:

(I am freaking like this W990i but it many problems!)

3rd HP:

(K660i, it is friendly but...I wanna a new "Friend"xD)

4th HP:

Vivaz....Sorry...You injured badly, I am sorry...>.<

Oops!! All Sony Ericsson, since I love their design and feature...

NOW...I want Sony Ericsson Xperia Neo V

yES!!!! I want it to be mine before Chinese New Year, can I make it?

Must find a part time when the Sem break! ^^

♥堅信♥

是時候讓自己好過些了，不再讓自己被悲傷圍繞著。

今日站在鏡子前，

從那眼神中我驚覺有說不出的悲傷。

希望那不是一望無際的。

究竟...

她堅持相信奇跡會出現的。

Out of Difficulties, Make Miracles

淚水沖不走

那悲傷，但沖走了那理智。

有時候我會選擇解釋，

可有些時候，我會選擇沉默，

因爲我覺得再多的解釋也是多餘的。

我想笑，是從内心笑出來，真正的快樂。

因爲 笑 能讓你暫時忘卻煩惱。

[mY favorite sOngs ] You will be my love

My love to you I’ll need 
I long for your touch  
You are the only one, with you  
I know I’ll find love that I need  
Love for a life time  
So please, please believe it’s true  
Our love will see us through  
For one heart share by two  
We’ll always stand, now and forever  
Through the sun, and all through the rain  
And for all time  You’ll always be my love  
So please, please believe it’s true  
Our love will see us through  
For one heart share by two  
We’ll always stand, now and forever  
Through the sun, and all through the rain  for all time,  
You’ll always be my love  
Through the sun, and all through the rain 
You’ll always be my love  all through the rain, for all time  
You’ll always be, you’ll be my love

✖忘卻傷痛♥

原本...已經停止些部落的習慣，可是最近心情太複雜了，

想借此發洩。

我只是一個普通人，

不用高估我，也不需低估我。

站在自己的崗位，做自己的本分，

一直以來我想要的都只是快樂，關心，諒解，自由而已。

漸漸地...我忘卻了自我，反倒去追求物質上的享受。

或許那是我忘記難過的方法，可是那過程真的很過癮。

其實往日的我對“談慕虛榮”的人感到厭惡，反感；

今時今日的我卻成了那令人討厭的“貪慕虛榮”的女人。

事實上我是那樣的人嗎？這不由我來置於評論，

身邊了解我的爲人的，便會知道。

我不是一個樂觀的人，小小的瓶頸足以讓我撰牛角尖。

有些說我固執，我不否認。

可如果讓我來説，我只是堅守自己的原則。有錯嗎？

比起以前...念中學，我自覺我成熟了不少。

一個再堅強的人，最終也會掉下眼淚的。

淚水沖不走的傷痛，辛酸心痛的感覺緊接而來。

一個微笑，一個笑容；一把眼淚，一臉愁容。

世上有多少人能將心比心？

“女人心，海底針”

這繁華的世界，走在喧鬧的街道上有多上個微笑著人是真正開心的？

関在鳥籠裏的鳥，會想要安於現狀還是會嚮往自由，想天空中的鳥兒自由飛翔？

相信這不是難題，懂事便會了解。

這邊廂被種種的煩惱說累積的壓力，壓得快喘不過氣了。

爲什麽她還要來閙我？難道就因爲他？

說我耍手段耍心機？

開始時，我完全不了解爲什麽她會說那番話，被弄得一頭霧水。

後來我發現原來是那麽一回事。

想了又想，始終不明白爲什麽會發生這種荒謬的事情。

我僅能做的只是裝看不見那尖酸刻薄的字眼。

我到底做錯了什麽？

♥Breathing♥Bleeding♥

I am freaking STRESS now.

I am trying my best way to success in the future,

Even though there are thousand of difficulties,

Even though how many time I cry...tear...

Even though they are trying to test my patient,

Even though there is an individual trying to hurt me,

I am still believe I can make miracle,

I am still being strong, wipe away the tears,

I am just tell myself to ignore them,

I am just can try my best to avoid it happened repeatedly,

before being strong, I will hide myself in the blanket, crying non stop, and can't stop it,

and...I will start asking myself :

-What's going on?

-What is the mistake I made?

-What ....

-Why ...like that

-Why me?

thousand question I asked myself.

If I let you to feel or sense that I am facing the "black face",

I am sorry, I am not showing that face to you,

I am just do not have the energy to smile at that moment.

Sorry. Maybe this word will become meaningless but that just what I can do.

♥Understanding but not Misunderstanding ♥

How frequently Stress belong to me?

They never leave me for one minutes, how can I say that?

I will try my best to solve those problems, but I need energy?

Where they from, only appear when I "communicate" with the mirror,

Ya, that's the way I encourage myself.

Sorry, I am not crazy, I just found a suitable way to push me in to the successful life.

I don't want disappear with myself and so to my Mummy♥

I just feel sadness, How many difficulties I am facing and faced. But why add the burden for me? I am stress enough. Please, PLEASE, I am just a normal human and women. I can't handle so many things at the same time, but why you are trying to challenge me? I don't know you and You don't me as while, can we just ignore each other? Don't give be that burden. I don't have extra time to explain to you. Just can say is:" I AM NOT SO CHEAP!" I got no reason to do that silly things, so please...I just can't avoid everything.

It's not a simply life, is a long journey to keep on testing your EQ and IQ. Always, always remember I am walking on the road full of stones and thorns. They hurt me as well, I became stronger as well. THAT'S ME, tHAT IS it !!!

Michelle is not a special human, but she had he special minded.

♬♪淚了✖

你聼得見嗎？聼得見我的心嗎？

重來沒有過的彷徨與無助，在此時一一浮現了。

無法用言語來形容心中的不安，累了也淚了。

今天預祝媽媽的生日，本因開開心心，可我卻提不起神，嘴角陽不起來。

很擔心...曾經因爲某种原因選擇放棄，后卻重新振作了。

現在的所遇的難題我解不了，逃不了的宿命。

爲什麽...爲什麽...若我說我不在意，那只是謊言。

板著臉不代表我耍性子，我心中的不安...沒人理解。

不曾試過有這麽一個人會問：“怎麽了？發生什麽事了嗎？”

試過的卻是，說：“整天擺黑臉，我得罪你是嗎？”

抱歉...我已經無法解釋，只有讓他人誤會吧！

這次的瓶頸自己解決不了，儘管我付出再多的努力，徹夜不眠，都無效。

數學對我來説...它...我不喜歡他。

縱使我試著去克服，再多的努力的是白費了。

中學生涯不同的是，你難過，老師幫你；遇到難處，老師朋友教你。

可現在呢？身邊...沒有人...是一個人都沒有。

問我後悔嗎？不，我後悔的只是我不應該和他一起讀同一個Course。

流言蜚語，多難聽的話都聼過了，只是我介意的是，

自己的弟弟明明是數學天才，他卻沒有這顆耐心來教導你。

倘若...倘若是我，我一定會盡我所能教到他爲止，而不是不停地罵我笨。

“笨！沒聽課！遲鈍！講了又不明白” 一次又一次，我能當作聼不見嗎？

我不是冷血的。

上數學課的時候，專心是一定有的，只是一聽到不明白的，下一步就...

上星期上Fundamental of Mathematics時，忍不住了，淚水在眼眶打滾...

他說他也不會做。我還能說什麽？拿滿分的人不會做？

他很想我Fail? 不斷重復FAIL三次就要Drop那個Course了，

或許那是他希望的吧....

壓力把我壓得快瘋了，我討厭壓力。

老天爺有眷顧我嗎？看得見微不足道的我嗎？

♥ Where is my Rainbow♥

I ❤ MY FRIENDS.

I ❤ MY FAMILY.

I ❤ MY CLASSMATES.

I HATE Assignments

I HATE Presentations

I HATE Add Maths

Why he don't have that patient to teach me?

but he did, just with the others.

I HATE Programme Logic Formulation

I hope this will not be another wrong decision again.

I can't accept...

I am very STRESS now... >.<

When can I see the shadow of sunlight and the colorful Rainbow?

College Life...

Graduate from secondary school since 2009...

Work as Teacher for eight month+3weeks(during college's break)

I hope nobody realise I go TarCollege...Enrolled and went for 3days orientation ,then I crying and wanted my mum and two old bring me back...I miss my home...

Happy....Finally...Inti College Subang Campus was my choice! I am series....

I no need to leave my house...

I already start my college life since 4 months ago...

It was so amazing...but I need to say that ASSIGNMENT was so many!

And the presentation was so “HORROR”,

It make me so nervous and scared...It was a big challege to me i think!

Luckily my coursemate are not bad^^

They are so funny...XD

Can remember that the first day I attend to class,

I get shock because they were no female in that class TT

That only one is ME...

Wao? Isn't girls will loose guys?

Oops! Not really!!! hahaha...

I am so lucky because I meet a good lecturer in Sem1!!! He always try to help us..

Mr.Don't sat I never tell you~~~haha...His classes will always not boring but interesting!!!^^

I found that more of them are 18years old and I 19years old==TOO OLD...

haha...but after the Lab tutorial presentation, I found that there are also 19, 20,21...^^

The conclusion is...I am not the eldest^^hahaha

CRAZY...

After a few weeks....FINAL EXAM!!

Ouch...actually I felt happy because long time didn't exam already...

I start study....FIGHTING!!! Keep tell myself,I should not make me dissappointed!

Unfortunately, I am not satisfied with the results , too BAD!!!

3subjects for the Semester_1

They are Principles of IT, Moral Education, Malaysian Study.

I only get B in the most important subject among them TT

A for the Malaysian Studies ^^So suprise! The first time I didn't fail but get A in "Sejarah"

C for the Moral Education == So difficult...but THANKS the lecturer pass me this subject!!!

Went to EC Council Workshop^^

Start attending to the class after the SEM 1 break...

The second semester subject was more abit tough!

CSC1122-Introduction to Internet Technology(yeAH!!! Mr.Andrew being our lecturer again)

CSC1101-Formulation of Program Logic(She was so boring==)

MAT1102-Fundamental of Mathematic(She always rush the hour,explain too fast==)

MGT2131-Foundation of Business Management(okok ^^haha...Ms.Cassie)

Totally 4 subjects man! TT

I believe that the big challenge are waiting for me...

I must pass all these subject!!!

NO PAIN NO GAIN? Hahahaha

To earn more $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

I will study hard!!!

愤怒...

同样的问题同样的答案,不会改变的，因为那是事实，只是你不承认罢了。

我也不想重提了...难道你就只能维护他？

往往你对我的责骂,永远都是因为他，我能不讨厌他？

相同的事情,犯错了你轻声细语地对他说，而我...你却永远大声责骂，或是以黑脸示人。

我想说：我也是你的女儿...

[这不是我小心眼,而是眼前的一切一次又一次的告诉我,那是事实,而不是我没度量...

往往以为考取更好的成绩就能获得你多一些的疼爱，看来我的想法太愚蠢了...我永远远远都比不上那自以为是的“小儿子”